poems by rachel kellum
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This body is not ALL THAT, though
It houses all it tends to think
I am. Hungry belly, heavy lids,
Tired breasts, a behind
That could be bigger but isn’t,
Comfortably forty. Forty years!
This body’s four decades of
Little deaths, this body a blue-
Print for cells who very kindly
Continue to replicate to replace
What is lost as I die every day,
Though today have forgotten
To fill a few finer lines. It’s ok.
They don’t ask for reward
Or accolades. They just live
For me, give me a chance
To think about the texture
Of wood, the sound of my son
Breathing. When the day comes
My cells stop thinking, they
Won’t be making meaning
Anymore, they won’t mean
Anything when I walk out.
They won’t even be a door.
Truth is, I am the door.
My body just happened
To pass through.
29 April 2011
choosing hazelnut creamer 14 years later and suddenly
hazelnut coffee
thin windowed basement in you
whispering thick loss
for a
tweeze
I bring travel tweezers downstairs from his bathroom to return
to my wallet’s zippered coin purse for emergency rear view mirror
tweezing. I never know when my eyebrows will sprout black secrets.
I stop to check my email first, read an inbox poem about white horizons,
follow a link through Roethke on cliches, to one about a mother who can’t stay,
or even say, enough already, quiet please, I’ve nothing to do with nonsense poetry.
I notice my left hand, silver tweezers still half pinched, poised to pluck.
becoming colorado plainsong
I never meant to stay so long, friends,
but while I’m here
I’ll let this sky
carve of me
a wide
bowl
holding nothing
with room enough
for every little thing.
It is possible my children will burn
It is possible my children will burn
my journals, my life’s mess, full
as they are of horrible confessions
and scratched out words. Perhaps
this is best, that they have their own
ideas of me, rather than my ideas
of myself. Both are just as dim
and broken, iridescent and flash.
Memories, propped up things
in dusty light and fingerless black.
in Disney World, waiting for nigiri, sipping Ichiban, enduring karaoke
On a stage
two children
sing
we
are
the champ-
ions
off key,
and finally
there is
authenticity
in this too
perfect world
built for them
and their parents’
money.
2010
thanks giving
I give thanks for my young boys’ muscled limbs
and taut bellies, their shameless animal ferocious grace,
gentle eyes promising gentle men, tender, telling more than war.
I give thanks for my daughter’s shy embrace
for the careful way she still arrives, touching hesitant edges
as we sleep, backs of hands, knees, feet, child-woman in mother-woman’s reach.
I give thanks for my lover’s slow speed
the open space he keeps, an ever present doorway
welcoming this tired mother, this freeway, this bending, stubborn glee.
2009
two haiku for birds
rain from the gutter
sings through night’s open windows
sparrows miss the sun
wrens wait for clear light
inside wet cottonwood trees
the whole town sings, come!
2008
magnetic poem one
Brilliant popsicle scent
Of carnival child
Murmurs time
Drips eternal corn
Remember the puddle
2010